Z FOR ZEN

2009-09-29T21:22:00.005+08:00

Finally i'm going for my off today , i can't imagine working for the whole week can be freaking tiring hahaha... don't know why i can't sleep longer even though it's my off day , i woke up at 10am in the morning started surfing net for black label burberry bag and i found 2 of it but can't make up my mind which one looks better hmmm the first one or the second :(

hmmm... spend my day out today with desmond , dawn , baby dylan and their maid at tampines swimming complex :D , the swimming part was fun and tampines swimming complex totally changed alot hahaha at least is better then the last time :)

After swimming headed to T1 for shopping and had our dinner at Manpuku , i didn't take any photo on what we have for dinner guess i shall wait for dawn to update her blog :)

Feeling super tired and restless right now , don't know why i turn moody while shopping just now sigh... uploaded a photo above forgot when it's taken lol enjoy night....

Devan Chew & Yap Xiaohui Big Day!

2009-09-20T22:41:00.004+08:00

Haha yesterday rush down to Aranda Country Club after work to attend my friend ROM , didn't see them exchange ring cause the ceremony started at 8pm and i ended work at 9pm but i already try my best to rush down as fast as i can so can't blame me:D
Somemore its a weekend plus suddenly when i going off alot of customer keep calling me " erm can you get a new piece for me" so irritating -.-

When i reach there i saw some of my friend going off and some asking me " why so late then come" -.- just have to answer then no choice just finish work :D , waited for others to come so i sat there eating . Guess what! we celebrated one of our friend birthday after 12am at there so he got sabo by us to drink and drink :D

Reached home at around 1plis so when to bathe and then headed to bed , its a fun and enjoyable day :D uploaded a few photo taken yesterday . enjoy!

Lastly, Congratulations to this newly-wed here, a blissful marriage! (:

2009-09-16T21:12:00.004+08:00

hey everyone i just got back home , had my day out with desmond and dawn at town. Got my LV belt which i been looking for so long :D hmmm guess i gonna start thinking what to get next . We had lunch at Takashimaya MOS burger , after that head down to cine to get our movie ticket ( Final destination 3D )

And we went to had desert at cine level2 i can't remember the shop name :( , cause we still got around any hour time till the movie start . Well the movie was not bad just that the 3D spec make me feel giddy -.- so the rating should be hmmmm..... 3/5 :D

After the movie we shop around for awhile then head back home , just now when i was in the train there's a auntie hugging the pole which make me unable to hold on to the pole then the stupid train keep shake and shake making me unbalance , what a day but luckily i didn't fall down :D

I going to have my dinner now , don't know when will be my next post lol enjoy!!

I'm gonna work hard this month....

2009-09-02T10:36:00.005+08:00

1st photo taken from my Iphone :D

I need a hair cut !!

super long never update my blog , i'm just too busy or maybe too lazy to blog? haha yesterday when back for office meeting in the morning and it's my first time attending was quite curious how it's gonna be like :D ... Planned to watch FD4 today but in the end ? thanks to andy !!

So when to watch liondance competition at Taka , it's been 2 years since i last watch it but next year will be different shhhh..... secret ! :D

Nothing much after that so when home to rest cause didn't get enough sleep the previous night haha... shall update till here now ENJOY!! :D

Craving for Iphone!

2009-08-13T01:31:00.005+08:00

I've been waiting for Iphone stock to arrive and it's like making me crazy arrgghhh , other then that i just can't make up my mind whether should i get Gucci or LV belt :s OMG so much things i wanna buy so i'm gonna go on a shopping session soon :)

Gonna wish someone here HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMINE!
And coming sunday will be Dawn birthday haha ! it's going to happening this week , so confuse don't know i'll be going to Carrefour or back to Compass Point tomorrow :| well guess i just go rest for now enjoy readers!

2009-07-25T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone i gonna do a random post cause my blog is dying!! i have forgotten when is my last post guess it's few weeks ago hmmm....

i have become more and more lazy to blog don't know why and i'm like a workaholic now! any cure for that lol , introducing ..... Wing and Zen below ! that's what we do almost everyday chit chatting session -.-

ohohoh.... my love horoscope You need to pay attention to others, not all of them are absolutely honest with you. what does that mean ? gonna rest early for tomorrow night peeps!

2009-07-15T11:00:00.003+08:00

Good morning! haha gonna do a fast post then head out for work

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yesterday was my off day so decided to go town , so cabbed down to pick up andy and head to wen yao house. Andy and me played PS3 while waiting for wen yao to prepare himself , when we reach town to head to paragon first after that headed to Taka to get my LV wallet :)
We didn't stay at town for too long after getting my wallet we went to geylang for lunch DUCK RICE!!! yummy

After finish eating me and wen yao asked the same question "eat finish wanna go where?" haha suddenly wen yao remember that he have to help his wife buy something so we headed down parkway to get it and fetch desmond because his working at there , around evening time we went back down to TG for training .

That's all for the day , gonna go peeps enjoy!

2009-07-13T10:17:00.003+08:00

Good morning everyone :) finally 1 week of roadshow is over so i won't keep complaining that Junction 8 is far lol but I'm quite happy working over there cause saw most of my friend .

hmm... well yesterday i was on full shift 10am to 10pm , after checking all the stock and putting up the display i went to have breakfast with Charmine at toast box , it's been months since i last saw her but her work ended at 6pm in the evening .
I suddenly turn moody when she ended work cause i got a kind of feeling after yesterday i gonna take don't know how many months to see her again , why will i have this kind of feeling and thinking? Anyway i gonna prepare myself in another 30mins time for work , today heading back to compass point . Good bye peeps!

Sometimes it's fate that let us meet up again after so long
when you told me to forget you , i did tried until i saw you
my feeling was still there but i don't want to show it out
i really don't know what i can do but to forget you

2009-07-08T22:52:00.003+08:00

Well well well .... it's been very long since i update my blog , that means my blog dying soon haha no choice I'm busy with work , so how's my day today?

hmmm.. headed to find Alex for a hair cut at west coast mall around clementi , shall not talk about the traveling time damn long man...!
For this week I'll be at junction 8 due to roadshow super bored about the traveling time and the crowd over there make me feel sleepy -.- haha got a new colour from my hair , love it :) will update some photo soon but for now i just gonna update a thai music video ENJOY!! nights

2009-07-02T01:14:00.003+08:00

2009-06-24T22:56:00.006+08:00

haha guess what's on my mind right now? hmmm... i'm thinking about my own wedding day and who gonna be my future wife , might sound kinda crazy to you all but to me its like WOW so wonderful really looking forward to it :)
Although i'm not attach to anyone right now . maybe can start planning agree? haha and i want it to be grand plus most romantic wedding of my life because getting married is only once in a life time so it's very important :D swearing infront of the pastor , to be with your wife for life till death and take care of her no matter what happen OMG! i'm going crazy la

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ

Will i have the luck? Believe me!

Well tommorrow is my off day gonna catch Transformers : Revenge Of The Fallen with my sister , it's better then watching the movie alone lol :) updated a few photo taken at China that time , shall do more update tommorrow enjoy peeps!

2009-06-18T00:02:00.007+08:00

Today work as morning shift due to training , really damn lazy to get out of my bed and was like keep yawning non-stop at workplace , so started work at 10am - 7pm . Andy came to find me and waited for me to finish work then cab down to Teng Ghee for training , my right hand totally got no strength don't know what happen , think i'm just too shag didn't have enough sleep yesterday night.

~ I HATE OFF DAY ~

Well my off day was on tuesday , can say is abit last min because when i woke up recieved a message saying " you today off then thursday work " so i agreed to it hmmm.... then i head back to bed so comfortable :) ok as for now i'm gonna turn in , still got work tommorrow GOOD NIGHT PEEPS! Oh lastly all my previous post was just some random stuff and bullshits cause i just like to post random stuff :)

2009-06-14T23:43:00.005+08:00

Suffering from serious headache right now arghhhh....

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I believe, once you got something you really wanted. You will lose something for an exchange.

2009-06-13T23:57:00.002+08:00

To love someone is to cherish that person.
To appreciate what they have done for you.
Love is sacrifice, sacrificing your time,life or money
For the person you cherish the most.

How wonderful life is, when you're in love.
Knowing that you care about someone, and when that someone cares about you too.
( i don't know she cares bout me not )

To love you, it means alot.
Being together is like being free.

money money money !

2009-06-13T00:11:00.003+08:00

hmmm... don't really know what to blog about so i just posted a photo of me before heading off to work :) well if anyone pass-by compass point can give me a call because i'm working at there haha good nights !

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Little Too Not Over You

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you, oohhh..

All that i wanted ?

2009-06-12T01:01:00.005+08:00

Today is my 2nd off day , wake up at around 11plus then went to tampines sport hall to play badminton , damn long never touch that thing but i can still say i'm a pro :D well played for 2 hours and then head to tampines interchange for lunch with ah dai while waiting for the slow poke angie to reach interchange .
Follow on by dragon dance training at night boring plus damn tired after the whole day so i'm gonna turn in early for tommorrow work :) , i starting to feel that off day very boring , i rather work :) shall update some pictures of me wearing working attire soon kinda lame haha
oh ya ! buddy came to find me on wednesday :) and had lunch with her then walk around compass point cause she wanna get pants for her work . Thanks buddy ! ok good night peeps!

Forgot or can't be bother?

Shag:(

2009-06-07T01:47:00.005+08:00

Haha i just got back home , it's my first weekend not going out to enjoy but i'm working . I still thought today was weekday maybe been busy till forget :) i'm starting to love my job alot , well gonna go rest now tml still got work good night peeps

Stress and Pressure

2009-06-04T01:26:00.003+08:00

i believe i can do it just need to have more confident in myself , i would like to thank Desmond and Andy alot for the help plus patient in me todat, i won't let both of you down tommorrow :) what ever stress or pressure i believe that i'll over come just have to ENDURE!!! i shall rest early after this post .

Off Day!

2009-06-03T13:06:00.002+08:00

Actually i know what's happening around me which you all think i don't know a thing
but i'm just acting blur , anyway gonna head out soon company buddy to get her working attire , see ya peeps

2009-05-28T15:11:00.005+08:00

Yesterday day went to Teng Ghee for dragon training , i was the first one who reach there when they told me 7.30pm don be late haha so i just sat down flip through some books until they all came and started changing then grab 1 dragon down for training.

As usual training end before 10pm then i headed to mart , play dota , slack abit then home sweet home.

Guess later i'm gonna go watch movie Angel&Demon , shall update more later on when i'm home , i just changed my blog background haha totally love it enjoys peeps!

Short hair or Long hair arghh!!! I can't make up my mind

Sorry buddy i didn't talk to you yesterday because i don't know what to talk :(

2009-05-24T15:11:00.002+08:00

Long day out

wake up yesterday around 12plus had my lunch and everything then went online , chatted with buddy about alot of things which i don't wish to name it out cause make me suddenly moodless :( , recieve a called from ah huat then i went to prepared myseld and head to mart meet up with him and the others cause we're going for some K session at katong shopping centre .
Quite alot people tagged along with us which there's not much space to sit and the air-con is freaking cold can't stand it , so it like 8plus when we finishing singing and 2 more hours till ah dai finish work so we decided to play pool while waiting , its been long since i play pool but luckily my skill was still there :D , while we heading to katong mall after playing pool we went into a shop that sell desert and we decide to grab something haha i had Milk ice frost , fruit platter with chocolate cream on it , arghh i forgot to take photo of what we eat and the shop waste sighh.....

Meet up with ah dai then headed to Ehub to watch Night In The Museum 2 :) , i watched night in the museum 1 and was waiting for 2 to come out , so many different character and the show was funny too , well overall the show i will rant 2 thumbs up !:) next i gonna aim for Transformer Revenge Of The Fallen :D , home sweet home after that super tired after along day outside , gonna play basketball later shiok . ok that's all got to go enjoy peeps!

2009-05-21T16:05:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling super down now!

2009-05-18T13:49:00.003+08:00

BTT !!

• good wealther raining
• BTT today , hopefully won't fail again
• Gonna collect my phone cause i send to repair 3 days ago
• Did my effort gone to waste?
• Tired , restless and kinda a moody:(
• Gonna head out now :)

2009-05-16T13:49:00.005+08:00

Somehow... Someday...

I just wake up feeling tired doze off yesterday around 4am , caught Fireball Muay Thai at Ehub , guees what!! the show started at 1.30am and we only just gonna start getting tickets cause its abit last min that we decide to watch movie . So its like get what we need and then went in for the show , hmmm overall this show is nice but with sucks ending those fighting moves WOW damn freaking style , headed to mart mac for supper then Dai drove me home :) , before the movie i went to repair my phone at century square and i need to wait for 1 weeks till i can collect my phone . Because the sensitive of the touch screen spoil if i'm not worry , think i gonna change a new phone :D that's all folks enjoy! And my sister not back for Thailand yet miss her:(

Does her friends take all your time?

Sa Rang Hae Yo - means I LOVE YOU

I'll never break your heart ....

2009-05-14T14:37:00.003+08:00

If you're reading this post , the song and lyrics is something that i been wanting to tell you .

Baby, I know you're hurting
Right now you feel like you could never
Love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you

From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would
Be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt like you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll
prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey he' s nothing like me

[ Chorus: ]
I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie

As time goes by
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby
And I know you're afraid
To let your feelings show
And I understand
Girl, it's time to let go
I deserve a try honey
Just once
Give me a chance and
I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick
to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see

No way, no how (I'll never
break your heart girl, I'll
never make you cry)
I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear)
No way, no how (I'll never
break your heart girl, I'll
never make you cry)

2009-05-12T15:23:00.003+08:00

Mother's Day!

Sorry for the late post cause i just got back home super tired :( , a few photo taken during our performance on sunday , well xiong and me only trained for 2 days don't have much confident but just go for it . hmmm... guess i can say its my last time jumping already because i'm gonna give up my dream , i have this dream since i'm at the age of 15 till now , i kept thinking and thinking whether should i or not? hmm.. i already make up my mind i really gonna just give up although its unbearable . we did well on that day and only got a small mistake :) that's all . enjoy!

Before that i only listen to the song , don't really know the meaning untill i see its mtv, might look normal but i got a thinking inside my mind erm... can say its a negative thinking but don't know is it true not?

2009-05-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

Working on something!

hmmm... i working on a video for someone special !

2009-05-05T18:07:00.007+08:00

FREAKING HELL!!!

i don't know what got into me freaking moody and ppl keep calling to PISS ME OFF!!! please stop calling me and say those stupid things which u all don't even know what happen to me , u can say i Lai Ang , mood swing or attiude problem i just freaking don give a damn at all . so many fucking things on my mind and no one can help so don't dream that i will say it out cause there's no point!!!

When a new born baby came to this world the first things they will do is cry , you all know why?
They cry because , they gonna start suffering like growing up , facing problem and alot of stress cause life never gonna be smooth!

When a person die why do people tears , know why?
Actually when a person pass away we should feel happy for them and not keep crying cause they're leaving this suffering world and going to a place where there's no stress , no problem and no worries . A friend of mine told me this and after thinking over and over its quite true!

I don't wish to see people tears for me when i leave this world too cause i'll feel happy leaving this world cause no more stress and worries at all . Being dead really got no worries at all? hmm... i can't confirm but its better then living in this world . FUCK LIFE!!!!

TAURUS - Very romantic.

(4/20-5/20)

Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it.

2009-05-04T18:19:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday To Me!!!

Introducting Ms Zennie!

Buddy wrote that on my hand!

B'day present by buddy and C!

I love this alot!

haha its my birthday today :) hmmm... guess i'm just gonna blog abit then head out , celebrated at KTV yesterday night and got birthday prank by buddy and C -.- OMG !!! haha the picture is above they make up for me and told me they wanna make me look pretty on my birthday haha look so gay lo , my friend they all just can't stop laughing , there's 1 more picture more gay at buddy there luckily she didn't post it on her blog haha!! Its gonna be a unforgettable birthday for me cause someone special to me is there :) well sang a few song with buddy , thanks for the present buddy and C i like it alot and those words wrote on the cupboard ! guess that's all gonna head out now enjoy :)

So near yet so far ..........

2009-05-03T13:28:00.002+08:00

Loving You

Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful
Makin' love with you is all i wanna do
Lovin' you is more than just a dream come true
And everything that i do is out of lovin' you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old

And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin' you has made my life so beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin' you

Lovin' you i see your soul come shinin' through
And every time that we oooooh
I'm more in love with you
La la la la la la la... do do do do

2009-04-28T14:26:00.003+08:00

Fever , leg pain arghh

taiwan

My 2nd home! malaysia

well wealther is cooling but the pain of my leg pissing me off ! how careless of me slip and fall yesterday shag , have to stay at home the whole day gonna go crazy soon , haha uploaded a picture of me when i was at Taiwan :) gonna go take my medicine and go to rest!

You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

2009-04-27T14:51:00.006+08:00

Birthday Coming!

What i have done over the weekend hmmm..... Meet up with few of my best friend went to catch a movie 17 again! before that went to tampines safra play billard haha , super long never play skill abit rusty :D The show is nice and funny ! i getting more and more lazy this few days :(
That's why my blog dieing!!

which pic looks better?

2009-04-20T12:11:00.003+08:00

Quite True!

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about...

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they arent with u

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile (:

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?..uh...never mind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinkin. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him... You don't need to give advice

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with you

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back,he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day

18)No guys cant handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life Everything said in this bulletin is TRUE

2009-04-18T07:25:00.004+08:00

Good Morning!

Erm i just got back home , feeling damn shag after marathon dota at Cyber Era haha its my first time going there. Quite unlucky cause was going to watch movie but when we reach Tampines Mall there's no more movie left , so my friend asked me wanna go Era with them ? haha i didn't wanna go home early cause nothing much to do somemore my parents just went to malaysia guess they should be coming back at sunday , so joined my friend at Era . And guess what? I never try staring at the computer for 5 hours omg!! damn tired right now gonna head to bed , shall update rest of my day later on . hope i will not dream of dota:( night!

only my heart know my feeling.

2009-04-17T15:40:00.008+08:00

Hello Earth!!

I gonna quit smoking!!

wake up at 8plus helped my dad with work till 2plus :) , just reach home omg the wealther freaking hot make me keep sweating arggghhhh.... went for lan gaming yesterday with a few friend haha won 5 dota match in a roll wow i'm pro :D , quite happening ! so went home after that and continue with my FFX on my PS2 then head for bed , recieve a msg yesterday i'm kinda shock! is it just a random text? erm i don't know :s
so what am i doing now? hmmm... chatting on phone and listening to songs . that's all Good Bye Earth :)

Dream is sweet and reality is cruel , which will you choose?
If only there's a place that i can scream my heart out loud till i DROP!

2009-04-16T13:51:00.005+08:00

8 letter words dumbie!

nice shoe?

can't sleep long this few days arghh ..... my back hurts due to yesterday training fall , my back hit the metal base and can't move my left shoulder :( so its like only using my right hand to do most of the thing. nothing much to do at home so i'm just listening to song . bored!!!

somethings can't be rush!

2009-04-15T14:51:00.005+08:00

Boring Day!

Bored so edited a few photo

2009-04-15T12:34:00.005+08:00

Love , Silently?

Hmm.... i had a sweet dream yesterday which will never happen in reality , competition is round the corner like 2 more month? and training starting to get tough and tiring but effort pay off i think. well meet andy at Tampines 1 for shopping and then went down to City Plaza meet ah yang had our lunch there , talk cock then when to Geylang lor 9 meet up with desmond haha its like round evening time so we had our dinner Claypot Rice!!! was nice but waited quite long.
And rush down to training , training never get bored cause A team has came back to start jumping :) its been 2 years still i saw them jump again but i just unhappy with someone who act like a BIG FUCK!!! which make me help him keep his shoes , socks and pants after his training !

minor injury

Haha rush back home after my training cause its my lunar birthday if i'm not wrong , my mum cook mee sua for me thanks mum!!! head to bed early yesterday cause was tired! That's all folks!

Mee Sua!!

2009-04-13T21:01:00.007+08:00

Gone For Good.

buddys!

Wake up at 11plus and receive a call from Recruit Express asking me whether still remember my interview time with them later on in the afternoon , well my friend asked me to work together with them . It's like helping out on NDP things not really sure do what but the work start from June and stop at August , so i only need to work for 2 months just to kill time.
Shop around Tampines 1 after my interview oh , btw Tampines 1 is a new shopping centre that just open on 9 April 2009 :) , wanted to go into Uniqlo but there's a long Q so didn't go in then went to Tampines Mall and had Long John Sliver .
Nothing to do so went to Tampines Mart for some lan gaming session with a few friends and then went back home . What a boring day!

i'm suffering from a retribution on blahblahblah !
loving someone doesn't mean you need to have that person , all you wanted is just to see her happy .
If i can have you i don't mind losing something in exchange!

2009-04-12T12:27:00.006+08:00

Its Too Sudden

wen yao and me

Good day everyone , yesterday performance was great haha didn't had any fall or mistake , we only trained for 3 days haha there's still perfomances coming on this wed help me jiayou . Anyway before that we went to JS KTV at braddel height cc after we prepare our performance stuff at hougang cc :) , the singing session was fun but i'm not feeling happy due to something on my mind which i don't understand why! So its like sing till 6plus and found out we are late then faster rush to TG take shoes and rush down to hougang cc.
When we reach there wow its starting to get pack with people , i sudddenly got a feeling very sleepy :( so we wait , wait , wait and wait till 9plus finally our turn to perfomance!
I was feeling nervous at first but i told myself just give it my best shot!
After finishing the performance i felt super relax and happy , packed our things after the dinner and when back to old tampines road to put those pole , guess what ! i only ate 1 packet of duck rice from morning till after performances :( was damn famished , luckily we are going to eat after keeping all the things :)
That's all for the day:)

2009-04-11T10:42:00.005+08:00

REMOVED!

i just force myself out of bed , tonight will be performing at hougang cc wish me good luck , my mood not really good this few days just keep thinking and thinking.
Somehow my bad feeling always come true , it happen over and over again sighs.....
My hope and dream have shattered

2009-04-10T11:04:00.005+08:00

Happy Good Friday!

jus woke up , my leg still hurt alot but yesterday my dad helped me rub my leg thanks dad , hope it will get better before saturday still got performance on that day , my phone still dead no msg from her sighss....
did i done something wrong? or you're ignoring me or something? i really don't know what happen its like too sudden. I don't sweet talk and i don't make empty promises!!!

Will i ever got a chance to hear those words ?

一句話

愛上你那是愛到不像話
後來想盡辦法忘掉
到最後我就合上了嘴巴
多數想對自己撒謊
星空下說永恆額頭上的吻
你雙手將我環繞
未來即便它是一個問候
也能對自己炫耀
有一句話再夜都聽不到
那些過往只好放在心上
你愛我太美好時間會知道
怎樣去熬成一句動人的話
有一句話再夜都聽不到
那些過往讓它自己燃燒
我愛你太美好
時間會知道怎樣去熬成動人一句話

記憶裡說我們相同得體溫
一想到就不會冷
未來永遠都是一個問候
也始終天荒地老
有一句話再夜都聽不到
那些過往讓它自己燃燒
我愛你太美好
時間會知道怎樣去熬成動人一句話
這是一種逞強還是一種堅強
我的寂寞很善良陪我到永恆地方
有一句話再夜都聽不到
那些過往只好放在心上
你愛我太美好時間會知道
怎樣去熬成一句動人的話
有一句話再也都聽不到
那些過往越不熄越明亮
我愛你太美好
時間它一定會把它熬成世上最動人
的話

2009-04-09T15:08:00.005+08:00

failure , goner?

nothing much to blog , everyday i wake up the first thing i'll do is to check my phone any msg from her but i got a bad premonition sigh......
training later on and my movement is like limping cause i just sprain my left foot and now is more swollen then yesterday , pain , pain , pain , pain . posted a video below that i found enjoy.

This video represent how much you're to me ,
Never gonna leave you alone no matter how hard times is ,

2009-04-08T13:32:00.007+08:00

what's happening?

swollen ankle

well just got back from training and got my ankle sprain ,i'm really down on luck .
monday wei infection then now ankle swollen , don't know whats gonna happen tml:(
In pain again sighsss..........

• we're drifting apart?

• things are changing? good or bad?

• what i want in my life?

• dream and reality , different?

• people from 2 different world?

• being dead really got no worries?

• tears and pain is it part of life?

• will god bless me with blissful love?

• missing someone !

2009-04-07T16:24:00.003+08:00

hate raining days!

• done some photo editing
• pain came back again :(
• bored at home
• thanks mum cook porridge for me:)
• shall update later!

2009-04-07T13:02:00.004+08:00

pain, pain , go away!

• The pain was unstandable
• Almost pain till i faint
• Suffer for 3 hours before seeing the doctor
• Got injection from the doctor
• There is something on my mind at the moment
• Gonna take medicine now
• Mood no really good :(

2009-04-05T15:49:00.039+08:00

I'm Back !!

my trademark

So happy to be back in singapore :) , wealther there super cold like 14 degree so sucks.
Gonna blog about the days in china and post some pictures!! its going to be a long post but i will try to make it short and i didn't posted all the picture cause i'm lazy hahaha. enjoy

01.04.09

''teddy bear'' is this lion nick!

a map i took on plane

When to meet Whitney in the morning near her house before my flight to china , passed her final theory book and chatted awhile before i when down to Teng Ghee to pray and grab my lion head :) , they booked bus for us to airport so we all meet at Teng Ghee.
hmmm... the bus arrive at round 9am , moved our luggage and everything on the bus then headed to airport , reach there stragiht away when to check in our luggage and lion head then when in to the departure hall have our breakfast at GOGO Franks.
Then is time to say good-bye to singapore haha!
hmm... at least i get to see her before i fly although just meet her for few hours i aready feel very happy about it because i'll miss her badly.
i do cherish every mins and sec with you! guess i don't have to say her name:)

02.04.09

Hong Kong Airport

HK smoking area sign!

Qin Xiong and me!

Big Rolex!

Well reached hong kong airport round 2plus if i'm not wrong can't really remember haha , have to stay at there for a few hours cause we're changing flight to Guilin airport at there so decided to have our lunch at hong kong airport , so its like shop around and took a few picture after our lunch , nothing much to see round there too so we just sat down chit chat and pass time untill 6pm in the evening for our next flight to Guilin super boring.
Your image has been staying in my mind always miss u:)

03.04.09

Guilin Airport

Some picture i took

Dinner place

hmmm... finally reach Guilin airport after 1hr plus flight , collected our luggage and when outside to wait for the tour guide guess what! i stepped out of the airport the wealther was super cold and was raining somemore , i can't really stand cold omg...... not long we saw our tour guide holding a piece of paper wroted Teng Fei!!! omg she wrote our troupe name wrongly -.- it should be Teng Ghee and not Teng Fei , didn't blame her cause she wrote it as how singapore sended her the info , board the bus and travel to a place which i don't really know the place name also for our dinner cause i can't read chinese well .
The dinner totally sucks!! the dishes they serve us is like all vegetable and with like only have 5 pieces of meat inside -.- damn sians , the best we think that is nice its the fried rice haha don't even have appetite when we say those dishes being serve on our table , suddenly i miss singapore food like carrot cake , laksa and minced meat noodle all this lol.
Well for a stroll around the place after dinner cause our bus haven't arrive yet and we need to spend 8 hour inside the bus till we reach our destination i super shag when i heard this -.-
And the people there is super attiude plus no manner damn piss with them.
The organizer for the competition there sucks too make us changed 2 bus during the trip in the freaking midnight plus the buses are filled with people which no place for us to sit but to stand.
Reach our hotel 7plus in the morning which i super steam due to don't have enough sleep through out the journey :( , got our room keys from the hotel information counter and faster when up to our room and rest cause still got training in the afternoon which need to take bus for 30 mins -.-

Afternoon part.....

Went to our competition ground , actually was going to start our training but due to some problem we didn't train -.- organizer sucks again. So when to pray there and took some group photo together then waited for the bus to go back to hotel.

Teng Ghee Family!

Qin Xiong & Me!

Tour guide , Kelvin and me

Night part.....

Went back to hotel had our dinner and bath everything then went out for a walk at the near-by town around our hotel , saw quite alot of funny things which singapore don't have haha i saw a guy selling baby rabbits beside the road its like $3 singapore money , wow it cheap and the rabbit looks very clean and cute :)
hmmm... so we found this KTV near-by , we thought its disco in the first place cause it don't look like KTV till we went ask the receptionlist haha was suprise , overall its cheap and the screen is projector screen super big and the room inside damn shiok haha don't know how to describe it too :) anyway i didn't drink any beer cause competition start tomorrow haha so i have coke!
I don't really remember what time when back to hotel but i think its before 12am cause gonna wake up early the next day:)
Simply miss every part of you!

China KTV

Stairway

Room Door

Me & Qin Yuan

04.04.09

Wake up around 7am in the morning haha i almost can't wake up cause i didn't really have a good sleep there for days :( , guess i just cut short . Had breakfast and took bus to competition ground , waited quite long for the openinng ceremony .
Had out lunch there , then wait , wait , wait , wait and wait super long cause alot event going on at the place like singing contest blahblahblahblah.......
The competition is good and we got a silver trophy :) , we did have 3 major fall cause the wind there is very big which never stop blowing , got my elbow injure but i keep quiet again.
Guess that's all for that day and its my first time representing singapore going oversea for competition , hmmm this experience i''ll not forget :)

05.04.09

Hong Kong BK

Hong Kong MRT map

Ah Zai and me

looks like HK gangster

Cheers!!!

Passport and boarding pass

• Same took 8hours bus back to Guilin Airport
• Fly to hong kong airport , waited from 10pm to next day morning 8am for the flight to singapore
• Had a very big feast at HK burger king
• Rot at HK airport very long
• Slept at the chair

haha i really lazy to type so much , let the pictures speak for itself :) heard that will be going there again round end of year , i don't think i wanna go too and if i going hope someone will be flying together with me :) still alot photo not uploaded guess slowly haha enjoy!!

2009-04-01T03:49:00.002+08:00

Good Bye Singapore

good morning everyone its kinda early haha , guess what i'm flying to china later on 11am flight. coming back at 5th april , hope will return with good result :) and will be looking forward to come back to singapore soon . shall update once i'm back cya!
I gonna miss you CHOCOLATE GIRL!

2009-03-30T13:10:00.007+08:00

Premonition , Premonition

Just wake up not long , i was damn fucking pissed last night ! I really can't take it anymore yesterday i fucking piss , don't alway blame me when i'm not the one in the wrong jus fucking get this , i'm tolerating you because of this coming comp if not i won't give a damn at all !!!!
Please try to understand people don't always think about yourself ! I'm telling you , i can tolerate any nonsense but there's a limit ok!!
Was a bad day yesterday like injury and scolding? really can't take it anymore gonna breakdown soon , almost fainted yesterday during training no one know about it cause i keep quiet.

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say
The way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands
How I feel
Someone who can keep it real
And who knows the way
The way I like to have it my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there
Wants to share
Shows he cares
Thinkin' you're the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? Is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to
Who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
Take for granted how much I care
Appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

2009-03-29T11:59:00.003+08:00

I'm Scare!!

Friday

hmmm... spend my day over at the spend , went for a swim in the afternoon with Ah Zai lol just 2 of us damn boring , before that i recieve a call from Ah Zai asking me to go down early to help him set up things all this so i waited for Darren to come fetch me :) its like 2 plus i guess?
Putted my stuff in the room once i reach there and we went out to shop drinks , beer , food and others which i can't remember :| haha headed back to chalet after we got all those things .
Nothing much to do there , its like rotting at there? slowly alot people came then started eating buffet , i stayed there till round 4plus? then when to meet Whitney near her house , ated my supper at a near by prata-house around her house just few blocks away haha then head back home after that :)
The moment when we're walking together its feel good which i hope the road will never end!

Took this photo when i was skating and the kite is damn long plus nice
If i can fly like the kite freely with no worries

Saturday

Woke up at round 1plus feeling damn tired , prepared then when back to the chalet again because recieved a call from them asking do i wanna go roller-blading with them? i decided to join them well its been years since i touched roller-blade and i don't have anything on too :(
When i reach there they asked me to go swim again -.- but this time round there's 3 person better then yesterday by 1 more person -.- i just sitted in the water to relax .
Quite alot people when roller-blading like Darren , Darren Gf , Ah Zai , Wen Yao , Ai Lin and me plus Ai Lin sister daugther , we rented 1 double bike , 1 double bike with baby sit and 2 roller-blade for 2 hours. We started off from costa sand to another end of pasir ris park haha well its a long way but its damn fun we all was like laughing all the way :) , there's a scene when we all was resting and Ah Zai don't know trying what stun turned quite a few round and fall on the grass hahah somemore there's alot people around and we spotted a girl can't stop laughing just like us she was sitting just beside where Ah Zai falled :D super funny i should have video it down.
Wented back to the chalet and prepare to start fire for BBQ , Wen Yao and me was super famish so we started cooking alot of stuff like satay , otah , chicken chop , chicken wings and hot dog haha they called me the SATAY KING!!! i sweated alot and eated alot till my stomach can't take it , people getting more and more , sang birthday song for Ah Zai and started cutting cake :) snapped Teng Ghee family photo with the cake lol shall update it when i got the photo.
OMG rot again after everything ended :( i stayed over night at there and slept at around 5 plus , its like i'm waiting for something like a text? worry?

Sunday

I just got home , woke up at 10plus just now over there because gonna check out like in 15mins time , omg i was like rushing packed my bag and went to return the BBQ pit that we rented , haha Ah Zai drove me back home with all the stuff like manjong table , manjong , vcd player and my personel things , feeling tired :( gonna go catch a nap still having training later on at night and today it rehearsal . Shall updated later and photo taken during this 2 days asap . Bye!!!
By the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAI!!!

2009-03-27T13:39:00.002+08:00

its you , its you ,its you

Good afternoon everybody , i wake up around 1 plus just now , slept at around 6plus in the morning haha was chatting with chocolate girl the whole night :) until she fall asleep then i silently hang the phone , chat about alot of things which somethings i'm looking forward to , ermm like a word start with M and name her as something start with W haha it might sound crazy but it will come true cause i believe it and its COOL!!
gonna spend this weekend at chalet , time to relax after so much tough training :) but what i wanted is just to see her everyday :) shall update when i'm back enjoy!

2009-03-26T13:07:00.007+08:00

You're my Chocolate Girl!!

Chicken Chop!

Things getting nearer and nearer and i'm feeling nervous right now , i will do my best :) guess what? i found out that there's something more important beside my liondance haha it will be a secret for now:) Chocolate Girl!!
hmmm... yesterday meet up with 2 of my buddy michelle and alex , was pissed eariler on before meeting michelle cause she was late and didn't even reply my msg or answer my call but after i know what happen i apologies to her Sorry buddy! So its like i meet her at outram mrt and when to clementi to find my hairstylist plus buddy ALEX!!! haha its been quite long since i see him can say valentine day till now? but we often meet out to chill or i go find him for a hair cut:) Well although his work place is far from where i living but friend like him is hard to find if u all read my post eariler on , he gone through alot of shit with me during NS :)
So i got a hair cut and michelle got a hair cut and colour , we 3 of us when to West co'z Cafe for dinner which alex intro us , its like just beside his salon . He told me something and i was shock , his position now is Jean Yip branch manager!!!! omg unbelieveable right haha few month ago his still a hairstylist but now manager Gratz Buddy!! Well dinner was great i order chicken shop , alex order fish&chip , michelle order don't know what soup i forgot the name haha , i tried a few piece of fish&chip it taste better then fish&cold oppss :b haha chicken chop was different from outside there's some herb taste , overall its nice and i'm super full :) rushed back home to grab my training stuff and head to training , super tired after training my back is like gonna break soon and my finger just keep shaking shaking lol
Thats all for the day and tonight training carry on as usual , tml is the chalet time to relax but who gonna company me:( ? ok got the photo posted :) just came back from training. gonna wash up and have my dinner :) enjoy !! oh ya btw i saw some little fur growed from my hamster baby!!

there she is my buddy Michelle

2009-03-25T11:26:00.002+08:00

You're The One

hmm... wake up like round 12plus yesterday , had my lunch and start blogging. well the above photo was taken last year if i'm not wrong haha , let me intro the guy beside me ALEX know him when i enlisted in army haha , i can still remember his hair was botak and face look damn sad on that very day :D . After not long we became damn good buddy , how do i describe it?
hmmm.... like smoke , eat , bath and we talk to each other our problem all this sleeping on the same bed lol , going out together :) His a funny guy and love entertaining people haha never regret knowing him and we suffer through alot of things during our NS life BUDDY ALWAYS!
Oh ya his a hair-stylist at Jean Yip.

So its like accompanied Whitney to cdc for her BTT , reach there round 4.10pm and she almost late for her E-trail test haha a look from her i know she is nervous. I waited for her at the canteen brought my twilight along so i can read while waiting :) .
Erm after her E-trial one of her friend came don't really know her name haha , so we walked Whitney up to level 2 then i company her friend go for enrollment below. Waited quite sometime outside the room for Whitney and the feeling is like i'm damn nervous although its not me taking the test but i don't wish to see her fail too because its her 2nd time. So just pray hard outside and guess whats the result? SHE PASSED!! She came out hugged her friend and super happy that she passed haha . I feel damn happy for her also guess i brought her luck like she say i'm her Lucky Star!!
When for training after that , the day came to the end. Happy day i spended today lol
Rushing out now shall update later ByeBye!!:)

2009-03-23T13:38:00.004+08:00

Happiness is short?

Fu long , zen , QY

Teng Ghee Family!!

Failed my BTT this morning damn piss!! Wake up at 8am today despise i slept last night like round 4plus , can't fall asleep not because i'm nervous about my BTT , its my upcoming liondance competition . Got blue black on my chest due to a major fall during yesterday training , so many injury haha but someone say will help me apply medicine oil !!!! i'm waiting lol:)
Its like everything is coming near etc. TG chalet and China comp . i'm really looking forward to it and starting to get nervous haha......

Words i like to say to someone.......
Well sometimes you have to accept it that things will not turn out to be the way you wanted but think about it , is he worthy of your love? This you should know it yourself.
Do you think you can see forever with him? Its not worth it to give up everything just because of him and when he can't even be truthful and make up decision . Step out of it before you fall more deeply in it thats what i told you before.
Whats friends and time for? friends will listen to your problem , sorrow and to concern you whenever you're down , maybe you just need some time to decide and forget.
Slowly Slowly Slowly Slowy.....

2009-03-22T16:11:00.006+08:00

Whose going to walk with me through this long road?

Wake up round 12plus? my body is getting more and more tired this few days due to training , guess i just endure through this week and i shall see the result. will i breakdown one day?
Tomorrow is my BTT so nervous plus blur :( gonna study till quite late today , there's still training TODAY!!!!! need to prepare and go out now shall update later on
Updating a few photo of my sis hamster babies like she say on my tagboard lol enjoy!!!

grow up soon!

2009-03-21T02:38:00.004+08:00

Pending?

Argh its been so tiring this few days due to training and we don't have much time left till 1 april , no choice but i will try my best no matter how tiring or hard it will be , i'll endure and try my best because no one can predict what will happen but i believe effort pays off.
Schedule for this week hmmmm..... its like BTT this monday , omg i haven even study on it hope i will pass haha , and follow by Teng Ghee Chalet this coming friday finally time to relax before going to China for competition but still got training :(
Sighss .... can't really sleep well this few days its like alot of things on my mind , am i stressing about things? Hope it will get off my mind soon and let me have a peaceful sleep.
Well so who will gonna send me off at airport at 1 april? hmmmm....
Night guys gonna turn in early have training tml training training training
OH YA my hamster just give birth to 6 babies today afternoon haha , it looks like alien omg but still cute hope they grow up soon:) shall update the photo tml!!
Few picture of me above!! enjoy!!

2009-03-18T15:19:00.002+08:00

hmmm heading out soon gonna be busy for this fews week untill 1 april 2009 will be flying to china for liondance competition :) , but will still try to update my blog cheers all .

Only Love

2009-03-17T14:30:00.003+08:00

Only Love

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again and walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

But only love can say - try again and walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

2009-03-17T13:36:00.007+08:00

Blood And Tears?

Whats the different between blood and tears?
its just liquid inside our body
two different colour
represent different thing

I was surprised!! i'm looking forward to 2 April 2009 somethings gonna happen , had training last night and well got my elbow swollen due to fall . sighss....
I guess its really not my day , i got my leg hit on the edge of the cupboard and old scar on my leg open . bleed bleed bleed ......
Wake up round 1pm , i had a very sweet dream last night which it will not happen in reality the moment really make me very happy but its just a dream after all.
Sometimes i rather not wake up and continue with the dream , its what i wanted all the long:(

Scar alway remain

Bleeded blood

Ai Tai Tong

2009-03-16T13:23:00.004+08:00

Last Thing I'm Doing?

are you referring to me
is the "you" means me
i don't think its obvious
can you tell me? i really don't understand

Start of my day? wake up like round 10.50am because gonna meet Steph at orchard , so i when to bath all this suddenly found out its raining outside omg damn bored. But didn't affect me from meeting Steph cause i asked her to help me pass the present that i made to her for me , i also don't know why i don't wanna pass it to her myself sighsss........ Today's her first day of attachment hopefully will go smooth for her.
Well took train to orchard , waited for 5mins before Steph reach chit chat awhile then she when off cause she don't have much time , i when to stroll around town alone then head back home cause damn bore and don't know what to get for myself too. Will update another half later.

2009-03-15T15:44:00.005+08:00

Is It Meant For Me?

Am i being naive ?
hoping those words , are meant for me
i asked you but no reply
guess its not for me
Why am i still hoping there's a chance?
Guess no much different whether u have me in your life
Who can understand me ......

Hmmm what happen yesterday? well when to darren baby 1 years old birthday party at AMK , actually didn't decide to go but guess i need to catch a breathe outside so i meet Yongming and Ah Bee at amk hub , i prepared and when out.
So its like meet Yongming at mrt station and Ah Bee at amk hub OCBC bank and he drove us to darren house just near by amk hub. Reached there found out we are the earliest to reach there , the rest still on their way.
Omg i eaten 4 plates of food from the buffet its like alot and my friend say i'm crazy :( i aslo donno why i eat so must this few days "am i using food to fill my sadness"? i cant control myself
Sighsssss ............
When for movie session with YongMing , Eugene , Ah Zai and his Gf we catched DragonBall while Ah Zai and his Gf catch Coming Soon. Kinda weird we not catching the same movie cause of YongMing he still haven't turn 16 -.- . Oh ya we had our dinner at Fish&Cold , i only eat chips cause i'm still quite full from eating buffet before that.
Hmm Dragonball is awesome but only the ending damn lame-.- , quite alot of funny scene which makes us laugh , rating from me hmmm 2 thumbs up!

So whats after our movie session hmm..... Prawning!! Ah Zai drove us to bishan park and its raining outside omg damn bore , it was crowded over there some watching soccer match and most people was prawning. We cant decide which pond to prawn because there's so much people and its raining somemore so we sat down and have drinks first.
Hmmm so we all decided to prawn at the bottom pond , starting wasn't good cause too much people but slowly later the envoirment became better with songs and peace cause without so many people many noise , I get kinda emo also listening to those song from FM sighs.
Guess i'm lucky i caughted 20 plus prawns plus Ah Zai and eugene we total caught almost going to 2kg wow but Ah zai say its still little cause he got so experience last time caught more then that , its like my 4th time over there starting to love the place.
Reached home at 5am arghh damn shag fast when for shower , dry my hair then when for bed.

If I Let You Go

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

the courage to show
to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later I've gotta choose
and once again
I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

if I let you go, oh baby

oooh

once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me (close to me)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

but if I let you go
I will never know
(oh baby)

will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
How will I know
(how will i know)
if I let you go

2009-03-13T12:41:00.005+08:00

Substitute Lover?

Didn't sleep well for the past few days , whenever i lie down on my bed things start coming into my mind , turning there and here on my bed just can't get to sleep. Whats bothering me ?
I don't know whats your thinking after receiving my message last night but what you reply me make me curious and confuse , make me start thinking and thinking again .
I been there for you but just don't notice me , your friendster , facebook plus blog was him him and him , WHY NOT ME AND WHY HIM!!!?? the feeling suck :(

Guess i'm just stupid to have believe what you have say blinded by your words , how silly , stupid , naive , fool and dumb of me maybe a lesson i have learned not to trust people so easily even the girl u love.
I still don't understand the message you send me , what it means? if you care to tell just text me then.
All the best in future , hope his the one for you.

Spending my time reading Twilight , its awesome!

2009-03-12T14:50:00.004+08:00

Continue Blogging?

Guess I'll continue blogging , past few days wasn't very good for me , when to media corp with Qing Yan to work lol LIVE AND LOADED!!!!
Starting to like rock music man !!!!
Whats happen yesterday I'd wish to talk about it , been thinking much lately which makes me miserable , heartache and confuse over it. Am i not good enough ? Alot of question on my mind which i can't find the answer maybe its just fate playing with me . Loving someone should be a happy thing but why i'm not feeling happy, realizing that i been doing things that i never done before struggling real hard to capture your heart but it won't work , am i sentence to death aready?
I don't know why i been eating alot like 4-5 meals a day omg! eating and eating non-stop something wrong with me? Not in the mood to blog too guess i just go and read Twilight .

2009-03-06T19:02:00.002+08:00

I wouldn't be blogging this few days cause something happen and it too sudden.

This song sounds like me a sha gua.

Taurus

2009-03-06T01:55:00.001+08:00

My Zodiac Signs

Quite true

Your earth, the element of your sign, is an earth that sows seed. This is an agrarian soil of nature where gain is realized, felt, and experienced sensually. It is this soil that you impregnate with everything that is to be a Taurus. You love nature where you find an exaultation of the senses. Your well-developed senses love the perfume of flowers. You have a natural ability to communicate with animals. You love to experience, first hand, all that nature has to offer.

Your earthy nature makes for a very sensual, physical, carnal being. No platonic lovers for you! However, you need lots of stability. You run the risk of experiencing great pain if this stability does not exist or is in question. You take your time before making any decisions and you rarely change your mind. You work with tenacity and patience, but you are often not rewarded as much as you deserve to be. The fact is that, contrary to the other signs, you don't know how to put yourself first.

Your qualities are not always recognized at face value. In love, for example, you give a great deal of yourself, but others just seem to take this for granted and do not appreciate your efforts. During physical activities it is the same. You always accomplish everything you do, but you do it discreetly, so that you are not rewarded the responsibility or success that you should have.

During your relationships, friendship or love, you are completly faithful. If you give your affection and your commitment, if is for ever. You give a great deal of youself and you are very disappointed at any kind of deception, and completely disarmed before mistakes and failures.

Venus brings you much sensuality and charm. You have a magnetism that endowes you with a gift for Love. However, you are not frivolous. Just the opposite! Your need for stability and security makes you prefer longlasting relationships.

Your faults often stem from your character. Your steadfastness may become inactivity. You have trouble adapting to new situations, crossing into unchartered waters, making quick decisions. Having several things on the go at once makes you nervous.

Your connection with other signs:

You have more chance of getting along with other steadfast signs. For example, Aries, Virgo and other Tauruses. You should however be on guard against anyone with air and water signs, particularly Geminis and Scorpios, who do attract you.

This brief but frank analysis will help you make appropriate decisions in your life. Study it well so that you can take full advantage and maximize your strengths and minimize your weaknesses.

Those who succeed, no matter the situation, are those who consciously or unconsciously take maximum advantage of their trump cards, their successes, their strengths, and know when to exert self-control in moments of weakness.

2009-03-06T00:38:00.004+08:00

Sorry for the late post cause yesterday was too shag so slept early , what happen yesterday hmmm when for performance at jurong west did well although there's a major fall at the start got my hand injure but never told anyone :( . Woke up early today to help dad work damn tired , had my dinner with ah zai , buddy and zai gf at hougang after today out lion , got caught in the rain having headace right now cough cough :( shall rest early need to wake up early again tml arghhh night all .

You got love defined by??

2009-03-03T12:57:00.005+08:00

This picture was taken on sunday while we are at bishan arcade killing time playing basketball lol me Qing yan and Fu long :) hmmm sorry did not blog yesterday cause whole day was busy and had training at night so only reach home at around 12+ and super tired , well got performance tml hope to see her :) Just let nature take its course

Dedicated To You

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found unvarnished truth
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

Thank God I found you
I was lost lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
Cause baby I'm so thankful i found you.

I would give you everything
There's nothing in this world I wouldn't do
To ensure your happiness
I'll cherish every part of you
Because without you beside me I can't survive
Don't wanna try
If you're keeping me warm each and every night
I'll be all right
Cause I need you in my life

See I was so desolate
Before you came to me
Looking back I guess it shows
That we were destined to shine
After the rain to appreciate
The gift of what we have
And I'd go through it all over again
To be able to feel this way

I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you

2009-03-01T23:13:00.005+08:00

Woke up around 12pm this morning damn tired cause slept late last night , well today activities is Wen Yao baby man yue in chinese :) was invited over to his house , so prepared then when to fetch and and michelle at their house downstair then head straight to AMK hub to meet YongMing , he's with QingYan , Fulong and Joe when u saw him , i asked them what they brought for the baby -_- most of them giving the baby Ang Bao so me and Yongming when to get present for the baby at AMK hub , OMG it rain again ! Walked from AMK hub to wen yao house the distance quite long somemore rain so inconvient.
Well saw kelvin and ah zai when we reach there haha , had buffet im damn full cause ate alot.
We all decided to catch a movie together lol , tried calling the cathay operator to book tickets but they say can't cause too many tickets its like about 11 of us watching , no choice so kelvin drove to find AXS machine to book the tickets.

This is the movie we watched Kung Fu Chief :) headed to Junction 8 , when to the arcade to kill time cause its still early for the movie after omg eat again argh , i eat alot today guess i'm using food to fill my sorrow:( ? Well this movie ending not good but overall not bad lol.
Thats all for today gonna turn in early cause got something on tml morning shag ar! night all

This song just like things that happening to me right now :(

QY birthday!!!

2009-02-28T15:31:00.005+08:00

Erm i have deleted the post cause of some reason :) , anyway it looks like going to rain kinda bored cause there is out lion later on. Gonna go prepare now and head out , shall update later on.

You still the one i love the most :)

Just got back from QY birthday party at a pub somewhere around SGH , hmmm something quite funny happen today when i was on my way to TG , i board the cab and the uncle suddenly gave me a sweet i was blur lol but the uncle is good thanks tho , guess what it rains again today damn bored cause we was having out lion and was caught in the rain. :( It finish at around 10plus and when back to TG , guess what again lol its QY birthday , was thinking of getting a cake for him before out lion but got no time and somemore after out lion all shop closed , hmmm so i came out with a idea with buddy go 7-11 and get a normal cake? both agreed lol . Rush back home to bath and change cause whole body was sticky.
Took cab again to fetch buddy and when down to kampong bahru rd if i'm not wrong lol , reached there i asked them whether wanna eat first cause i'm famished , had 2 piece of prata with ice milo kinda full , its time to cut the cake we sing happy birthday song in English , Chinese and Hokkien version lol damn funny .
Sitted there for awhile and when back home cause tml morning 9am there's a friendly soccer match with other people -_- they last min asked me to play , guess i just tag along then since its all TG people:) anyway ah zai sended me and buddy to hougang to take cab cause its nearer to our house then the pub zzzzz
Got found out something got 2 new hamster lol so cute 1 in black and 1 in white i took photo of them i shall post it let u all see enjoy gonna turn in early for tml soccer match night.

Happy Birthday Qing Yan

Give me time to prove to you that i truely love you

In pain

2009-02-28T01:41:00.008+08:00

Just got back from training and have quite alot injure today :( cause wasn't concentrating during training , well earlier on when to amk meet buddy and when to fair price brought some red bull , 100 plus and ice lemon tea for training later , its remind me of my first met with her at amk hub haiss
Took bus to TG to grab my personal lion head , haven use it for very long time or maybe is i never use it before , reached TG i was like "hmm still early why not rest here awhile den head down to training" buddy agree with me and we just rest around , nothing much to do so i comb my lion head hair. erm kinda funny cause i carry my lion head cross the road to wait for cab everyone is like staring at me then my buddy keep laughing omg .
4 more days till performance hais pray it will be smooth for me and QX , we trained till 12am today wow but i don feel tired just moody only. Don have moody to blog liao guess i just upload some photo and thats it for today. Thanks buddy for your post.

Everyone is telling me that there's alot of girl out there all this but do u all understand that loving someone is not easy and giving up is not really easy!

??

2009-02-27T02:11:00.004+08:00

ROSES ARE RED,
VIOLETS ARE BLUE,
I DIDN'T SEE YOU TODAY AND I MISS YOU,

I MISS YOUR SMILE,
I MISS YOUR EYES,
THERE'S NOTHING ABOUT YOU THAT I DESPISE,

I MISS YOUR CARE,
I MISS YOU KISS,
THAT'S WHY RIGHT NOW I'M WRITING THIS,

I MISS YOUR VOICE,
I MISS YOUR TOUCH,
I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

Praying hard right now!

Happy day!

2009-02-27T00:29:00.003+08:00

Woke up at around 11am cause what i heard from my buddy must reach TG by 12pm but i didn't receive call or msg from her then i text ah bee and ask , ah bee told me its 1pm -_- omg got bomb by my buddy and somemore i didn't sleep well last night keep waking up in the middle of the night.
Just got back from town:) , when to meet Gwen n Steph , well Steph was late for around 1hour?
Before she reach me and Gwen when to have our dinner at Din Tai Fung , when we having our dinner the moment i felt so happy and sweet but the time passed so fast :( , met steph after our dinner and when to cine actually wanted to catch a movie but steph need to go home early cause she have school tml so we didn't watch any movie , sitted outside cine for quite long and decided to find a place to sit down so we when to paragon Coffee club to chill.
hais what a fail day for me :( sended gwen to take cab and i walked to take train.
That's all for today i guess night all!

Really hope the time stopped at that moment when i with her.

Hate rainy days

2009-02-26T00:04:00.009+08:00

Well today wasn't a good day cause it rains and make me having a hard time traveling , so i took cab to elias mall meet buddy for dinner and den cab again to fetch her bf at tampines courts.
Head to shi guan cause today there is outlion at Lor Ah Soo one of the temple , me and QX performed cai qing , seriously the weather very %#$! make my sweat keep drip down and my whole shirt wet omg . Nothing much about today. i suddenly remember my buddy say i was very cheerful last time but not now , did i really changed? i aslo donno. Updated photo below during cai qing just now with QX enjoy.

Whats yours is yours ,not yours will never be yours

Whats Love?

2009-02-25T15:06:00.005+08:00

LOVE

To love someone is to cherish that person.
To appreciate what they have done for you.
Love is sacrifice, sacrificing your time and life
For the person you cherish the most.

How wonderful life is, when you're in love.
Knowing that you care about someone, and when that someone cares about you too.

To love you, it means alot.
Being together is like being free.

Question

1) what if the person don appreciate things you have done for he/she?

2) what if you cherish that person and he/she don even care?

3) what if you care about he/she but she don care bout you?

4) Being together is like being free its true but what if he/she don even wanna give u a chance to be together?

I found those meaningful words somewhere and somehow i wrote a few question above , what will the answer be? For me its a big question mark cause i don't know what the answer is unless the person tell me .

Things may not turn to be the way i wanted

ZEN n Xiong

2009-02-25T00:18:00.008+08:00

Just came back from training , next week got to perform aready kinda not confident enough but still will do my best , the photo above was taken by Michelle my buddy lol and edited by her too nice? oh i forgot to introduce my shi wei , his Qin Xiong he was a lion head last time but now is my backside means "shi wei" although his shorter den me but our mo qi is good haha.
We order mac and pizza hut for dinner lol kinda like picnic over there , training ended at around 11 plus and ah zai drove me home thanks alot zai , reach home eat again omg damn full right now
Guess thats all for today gonna rest early nights all.

The river never stop flowing just like my love for you never stop!

2009-02-24T18:42:00.002+08:00

You're my every dream I fall asleep to
Every rhythm, beating inside my heart
The stars each night watching over me
To guide me when I'm lost in the dark.

You're my inspiration, my every word
Felt so deep through the poetry I write
You're the eyes that help my heart see
For it's you, who gives my heart sight.

It's your heart that has embraced mine
Your beautiful green eyes, I am lost in
Your ever tender kiss I yearn for, And
It's your soft touch, gentle as the wind.

Only with you love is truly everlasting
You're my every desire, every passion
Only with you, my heart fell so deeply
Your simply everything I've imagined.

i'm touched!

2009-02-24T17:51:00.006+08:00

When to watched a movie with my buddy yesterday very last min cause i told her that wanna go for shopping but she woke up late -_- , i rate this movie 4star cause the whole story was so perfect , romantic and touching . And oh ya , i wanted to watch "Underworld Rise Of The Lycan" but so sad she haven pass her 18years old birthday and the movie was M18!!
Lucky she introduce me to watch this movie "Look For A Star" haha , we smuggled fried crispy chicken cube into the cinema :) , i shall not talk about this movie if u guys interested just go and catch it in cinema cause its really very nice!

I had Chicken Cheese Salsiccia Spaghetti and she order Crayfish Spaghetti , something funny happen when our dish was serve she founded a strand of hair in her crayfish spaghetti and she when to complain OMG!!
They changed her dish but guess what the second she still found a strand of hair on her crayfish Zzz i was like wtf? lol in the end she didn't not finish it cause she already lost her appetite . After that when to help her bf andy ta bao dinner and thats the end of the day.

sorry for the late update

Must Read Buddy!

2009-02-23T02:10:00.004+08:00

Liondance

Michelle as u know i today just told u that i will be putting you in this year competition right? I'm not joking cause i know what u want to achieve in TG. I know its going to be tough on you but always remember that during training scolding all this will come and when its come nearer to competition it will be more tougher cause everyone wanna do their best i bet u also want too right? I know you're new in TG even me in TG so long i still get scolded by them , they not just scolding for fun its because they wanted me to do better like i also wanna give it my best.
I believe you can do it just endure for abit and you will see the result.
As your buddy i will always support you and if u have anything that u don't understand jus ask me i will teach you and explain to you ok so don worry bout letting me or them down cause everyone has their first time.
JIAYOU buddy!!

About Your Home

Although i don't much about your family things but i can tell you that my parents wanted to send me to malaysia before and let me stay there cause i did something very wrong which i regret now.
Who never be controlled before? even me also get controlled by my parents last time , i can say that i got my freedom now , at your age now being controlled by parents its normal cause you're a girl and don ever compare with other people for example "they also girl but got freedom why i don have" every parents have their reason but one thing for sure no matter what they still love you alot cause you're their flesh and blood.

Relationship

I heard what QY say to you yesterday , i know it will feel hurt inside but why should you care about what other people say? cause no one is perfect , seriously compare to those girl around andy you also won't lose them cause your not ugly at all. If their pretty but character not good whats the use right.
You must understand every relationship will come to a stage which will turn cold , its not because he/she don love you anymore , its like a stage that every rs will go through so you don have to worry about it buddy. If you think letting him go he will feel happy? what about you ?
Will you feel very hurt, regret , miserable and more although u love him alot but u still let him go?
Being selfish is not wrong cause everyone has to fight for their own happiest , cause happiest will not come and find you.
Now its not the time to think let him go or not let him go , its the time that you do something to build back this relationship like how it was last time , you never try you will never know whats the result.
I might be good in consoling people but even my own rs problem i will think much and seek for advice from friends. Just don think much ok.

CHEER UP :)!!!

Helloooo

2009-02-22T23:44:00.003+08:00

Just got back from liondance training kinda tired cause performance coming up on march , only left few weeks till performance so have to train hard , nothing much about today cause woke up at around 3pm damn late , yesterday when to andy house do some important things , reach his home around 12am . Guess what time i reach home!? around 6am in the morning damn shag. i think thats all for today , oh ya btw THANKS buddy for the meal i called u to help me ta bao :)

When and will the day come?

ZEN to Gwen<3

2009-02-22T15:44:00.002+08:00

Dedicated To You

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And I dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe I can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the warmth of your embrace
And I pray that one day, it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Your image has always been on my mind every min and second

Tired Day.

2009-02-21T02:35:00.004+08:00

Well as normal woke up at 10plus , when online talked to my friend ah bin he asked me out for fishing at pasir ris town park if i'm not wrong so i decided to company him but i not fishing just when to relax.
Guess what! we spend $30 for 3 hour and never caught any fish and the weather is super hot , i sit there for 3 hours under the shade staring at the pond -_-
Met andy and michelle at there , the first word they ask me is WHY YOU SO MOODY!!! well don have to say i guess they know what happen:( , when prawning with them for around 1 hour cause the time its like 5 plus and my liondance training is at 7.30pm , today not really a lucky day me , andy , michelle and ah bin each spend $13 and only caught 3 prawns!!! damn stupid right.
After that when for dinner at white sand food court i ate alot cause i'm famish , cab to old tampines road for training after that.
Just reach home and my whole body cover with bruise and pain , gonna go eat something now cause hungry again what a tiring day .

I really don wish to give up on you girl , what can i do?

2009-02-20T11:01:00.009+08:00

Nothing much yesterday , when to tampines mall brought a pair of ear ring . The above pic is some move done by me during CNY , its been years since i do it and i have done it cause my lion dance troupe people wanted me to show them :) will share more things that happen during CNY .
Thats all for today i guess.

Is it fate thats making things turn out to be like this or i'm just a silly fool?

2009-02-19T14:24:00.001+08:00

woke up at around 10am yesterday , was trying to figure out how to change my blog skin thought was hard but actually not really lol its quite easy. Oh ya btw this is my blog if no one knows:)
Rotted at home till afternoon meet my friends for lunch at around 4-5pm lol kinda late to have lunch at this time. when for basketball session after that. guess what! its been months since i have played , my body was like abit stiff and inflexible haha . around 8plus i stopped playing cause i donno what my mind is thinking i'm like not concentrating and my face got hit by the ball -_- . guess i know whats on my mind and its been 2 days i been thinking about it . decided to sit down and rest for abit.
when for lan gaming after dinner at tampines mart which my friend keep pestering me to go join them ( i was like omg i'm really not in the mood for this ) decided to join them.
OMG!! policemen talked to me while i'm walking home is like jus below my block , entertain them for abit and when home.

Seriously i miss u alot girl:)

Because You Love Me!

2009-02-19T12:06:00.001+08:00

Dedicated To You!

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me